@CASSANDRA MASON
@DATA TYPE: RETROSPECTIVE
@LANGUAGE: ENGLISH
@COUNTRY: FRANCE
@PARTICIPANTS: S 
@SETTING: PRIVATE
@TIME: LATE
@SCHOOL: SECONDARY

Reflecting on live recording

* I don't feel that I really do give the impression I would like to give of myself on the tape.  I'm not really demanding enough that I get all the details and information I want.  There's a lot of nervous laughter and Mme Grimaud keeps talking a lot.  As I think I've mentioned before, it's not much of an interaction; Mme Grimaud waffles on a lot.
* I'm not sure about a complete mutual understanding.  It was very hard to get across to my responsable that I actually wanted certain information (ie procs d'installation).  I did get the impression that she didn't understand why I should want any more information than she was giving me.
* I was initially satisfied with the meeting but now, looking back, I think it could have been a lot more useful.  My immediate reaction was huge relief at finally being given information and the NAMES OF MY SCHOOLS.
* I think my written tmoignage is more positive than I would be about it looking back now.  As I mentioned above, I think my initial reaction was just relief to be given more information.  I could have been more critical and more demanding.

Reflecting on relationship with responsable

* My first impressions on meeting Carole Grimaud were utter and complete confusion, which persisted for the first month.  I had no idea whether this woman was my responsable at all, but she was the only person I'd had contact with (other than the headmaster of <school name2>, up until this point. Looking back over my log book, I notice I've commented on how friendly Mme Grimaud has been, which I guess is true, but as I've commented before, she has been fairly ineffectual.
* My relationship with Mme Grimaud hasn't really had much chance to evolve as I haven't really seen her since before Christmas.  My relationships (professionally) have transferred a lot more to the English teachers in the individual schools. If I do see Mme Grimaud, she enquires how things are going but doesn't seem that interested if things aren't going well.  If I ever told her I had any problems, she just told me "a va se rgler."
* Since I finished writing my logbook, I haven't seen my responsable Mme Grimaud at all.  My relationships with my English teachers have really evolved though.  In certain of the schools the teachers were quite hostile when I first got there (ie <school name2>), but now I get on with them really well and they're really appreciative of any extra games or activities I prepare for them.

* There's only one thing I've left out of my logbook, with regards to Mme Grimaud, which has nothing to do with life on the academic front, but which really helped me out on a personal front.  The oven in the house I was renting from the IUFM at Quimper (where I work) was completely ineffectual for cooking and quite a health hazard as there were frequent gas leaks and the oven didn't turn off.  The woman at the IUFM in charge of the house did nothing about this and just told me that there wasn't enough money to sort anything out.  It was only when Mme Grimaud came to look at the cooker and pointed out to the IUFM that this wasn't acceptable, that we got a new oven.
* I don't really think that participating in the PIC project has affected any of my relationships but then it's hard to tell.
